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some new poems

saved some poems from my phone... wrote it there to ease the boredom and now i want to clean em up... here goes---


i.

nakasusulasok sa loob;
sa dami ng taong
naghihintay (ng pagbabago),
nakatunghay (sa impyernong langit).

isang daang
taong
napapagal.

ang sistema---
limampung taon na,
mabagal,
matagal.

ganito kami
winawalang-hiya
ng aming mga
"tagapagligtas",
ng mga taong
tutupad dapat ng aming mga pangarap.

limampung milyong tao na
ang naghahanap
ng sagot
na di mahagilap.

ii.

hinihila na ng mga anghel ang mga mata ko.
lulubog... aahon...
tulad ng palad kong ang diwa'y
umaalapaap...
umaaso...

at ito ang buhay
antukin.

iii. (what first timers might not want to forget)

i was able to kiss her,
under the blazing yellow lights,
amongst the vacillations of the crowd,
i kissed her.

her cheek was almost my disgrace
as it may be forced
the crowd was pleased
and so am i.

i was able to kiss her
as my heartbeat still manifoldly scores
my bone trembles as the crowd wants more

i was able to kiss her
lovely cheeks
yet
it was her lips of my delight
my joy was only spread in the empty space of my soul

i crave to kiss her
on her seemingly
bleeding lips
but i can only be
a faint
acquaintance

and that's all
that's all
that's left
for me:
kiss
on dust
smile
on the mirror
and a shower
of regrets.

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